It’s been a minute - here’s some thoughts i wrote while we were still in Indo 🫶

Though our feelings may come and go, God’s love for us does not.

What can i say about Indonesia? i don’t think there’s enough words to adequately describe the amount of joy, peace, and excitement that has rested on these past few weeks.

Since leaving Training Camp, so much has happened. Travel days were full of bonding and connecting on deeper levels with our squad. Something I was dreading (airports - not a fan 😂) turned into one of my favorite parts so far. God has been SO incredibly intentional with our squad. 10 hour layovers were made joyful and intentional through ministering to those around us and laughing freely. Something i’ve noticed is the FREEDOM that a lot of A-Squad walks in. Our testimonies don’t end on a perfect note. They end on an “i love Jesus and things are still hard”. And yet this group still walks in such immense freedom, their eyes have been opened and they’re walking freely. Jesus offers more freedom than i could ever imagine - and He’s inviting me into it. He’s inviting me into it.

One of my favorite parts has been our night of feet washing. Sweet worship through music, intentional humility, and words of life characterized those three hours. The part i found hardest was saying yes to having my own feet washed. i was given the gift of stewarding that night, yet i was the first to have my feet washed. It was humbling and something that blessed me so greatly. To have words of life i had never before believed spoken over and into me was such a God-thing. Throughout that night, i was called higher in so many different areas and His words were what i was reminded of.

One night, a couple of us talked about wrestling with God. i was reminded that really, we’re wrestling with Him to get closer to Him. He has always been the goal, continuously been what i desire to strive towards. He’s not against my wrestling, He just desires to dance with me instead of watching me struggle against a current.

Indonesia has been so many things. So many things that could fill pages upon pages. It’s been seeing Jesus in kiddos, “my” girl becoming more vocal, more comfortable - a thing ONLY God could do. It’s been conversations about Scripture and theology and the fact lizards make weird noises. It’s been fighting to wash dishes and dancing in the kitchen. It’s been a lot of PB&J’s (blueberry jam is so good) and so many hugs. Life in Indo has been hard and so much fun. It’s been refining and lovely and Jesus is life-giving. i don’t know if i’ll ever be quite ready to leave, but i’m so glad He goes with me anywhere. He’s the same God, may these practices continue forever to deeply know Him.

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i truly, truly cannot say enough about Indonesia. i fell in love the moment we stepped off the ferry and continued throughout the entire month. One word i’ve continually felt over our month there has been “sweet”. i’ve tasted and seen of truly the sweetest of Love. i’ve seen Jesus like never before and got to know more of the heart of the Father. i can say with confidence that i know the Lord better than i ever have - and yet still i know Him so little. “So i dance for the things i don’t know today, but i dance for the things i will know later. i’m going to discover something amazing! i don’t know today, but maybe someday i will.”

“i am chosen, not forsaken, i am who You say i am. You are for me, not against me, i am who You say i am. who the Son sets free, oh is free indeed. i’m a child of God, yes i am.”

i love you! Thanks for coming alongside this journey. Grace and peace 🤍